Feeling Like A Fallen Barn. the hipster way. I’M NOT A HIPSTER.

Let’s get this started on a completely true & accurate hipster note, but I’m not a hipster.

I’m sitting here, sipping on my freshly roasted, freshly ground, single-origin pour-over coffee from Rwanda. I roasted this coffee a bit further than I normally do, pushing about two minutes past first crack. This coffee is revealing notes of caramel, heaps of natural sweetness, and apple-skin tartness to really get the eyelids open. It’s just my coffee, me, and my two boys. Oh, and we’re watching a 1994 episode of Elmo. Stellar, right?!

You ever feel “spent”? I don’t usually, but I sure did yesterday. This morning, however, because of the fresh haircut I performed on my noggin last night at 1am, I feel a bit better.  Sometimes you’ve got a series of non-stop days where you’re calendar has absolutely no room left and you fly through it like a champ and you nap afterwards. Other times you get halfway through and you start missing meetings, appointments, and you can hardly roll out of bed. I’m sad to admit that I’ve experienced the latter for the first time in a long time.

I was reclaiming pallet wood yesterday into new creations in a very non-hipster way, when it all caught up to me. All I wanted to do in those moments of cutting, planing, sanding, and assembling was to spend time with my friends and family. I wanted to take my boys outside and play, I wanted to go out and see friends I haven’t seen in months, and I started realizing I wasn’t even enjoying something I absolutely love! So I wrapped up what I was doing once completed the necessary task, put my beanie back on, and went home.

I was expecting my boys to be in bed when I arrived home, but they were still awake. So my wife and I got them ready for bed and put them down. My son has been sleeping in his big boy bed, so that’s actually pretty fun to be a part of.

Between talking with my wonderful Christina, soaking up the emotional chaos I was experiencing(which, again, is VERY unusual for me), and reflecting on a coupe brief passages of scripture, I’ve gotten the motivation I need. I didn’t want to hoard it all to myself, which is why this post exists.

This scripture came to mind, so I opened my bible and found it.

“Why, my soul, are you downcast?
    Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
    for I will yet praise him,
    my Savior and my God.”      – Psalm 42:11

So then I asked myself: Am I feeling down today? Yes. I feel down because sometimes we as people like to see results and we don’t see them in the way we’d like. But wait, do I feel like I’m doing what I do so the work and will of God would be made known in my life? Yes. Then there’s hope in that! There is hope in our work being for the Lord, and here’s how we know:

“Therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.”       – 1 Corinthians 15:58

The apostle Paul here gives the church in Corinth a huge dose of motivation to keep going in their work, and to give it all they’ve got. This reminder and encouragement rings true today as well. We don’t always get the results we think we deserve, sometimes we feel extra tired and worn out, and sometimes we just don’t know if we’re doing the right thing. I suggest we commit everything we do to prayer, to God, and allow Him to reveal His plan in His timing. Let’s work through it together and, remember, when committed to the God, our work is not in vain, even on our lowest day.

Feeling downcast, sad, and a little burned out is all normal. We’re human beings and we have feelings and emotions for a reason. God created us to feel and experience these things, and we need to trust in that and continue to press on in our work for His glory! Feeling a little(or a lot) like a fallen 100 year old barn? There is hope! Take a step back, look around, and see the hand of God at work around you through His word and His creation.

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